The Daily Scream

is that under certain conditions, ordered, regular patterns can be seen to arise out of seemingly random, erratic and turbulent processes.
~ Robert L. Shacklett

As I try to find meaning of the seemingly random, erratic and turbulent process of my chosen career; I feel as if I am loosing myself. After graduating in 2000 I went into teaching special education wide eyed and optimistic! I knew “then” that “I” would never become one of those bitter people who fall victim to “the system” only to loose the spark that brought them into the field.

So within this chaos, what is the pattern that will teach me the lesson I must learn?
What need is not being met, that is causing me stress and anxiety?
How do I find order, pe*A*ce, flow, grace? Oh, and without loosing my mind?

I guess I need to pick up my hoop and spin, spin into a vortex of chaos with the hope to find order, pe*A*ce, flow, grace.